i shall announce to myself as well to all my friends who are always worry and care for me... FRIENDS out there!!! u guys don't have to worry about me anymore... cos i have put down my 4 years BURDEN... how do i do that ? actually everything starts on the day when everything has been convey to me clearly but i was trying only... however now, i'm proud to say i MADE it!! i DID it!! it all happened on last month..and never will i forget this date... 28 JUNE .. i found out that the one who i waited and longed for.. has got together wif one of my friends... well... frankly speaking, at first sad and shocked cos that was one of my friends who on and off will ask " how are we"? tell me " be patience, things will be better.." but ended up did that to me.. seriously, i may not know and don't wish to know how she feels or whether she had feelings for him in the first place.? that was only AT FIRST!

i'm not trying to be noble.. neither do i blame or hate that guy... and instead, i should be thankful and grateful to BOTH of them... they wake me up... i have been too ignorant for 4 years!!! i can only blame myself for so stupid and naive that once again i was betrayed and hurt by friendship.. and incidents of such happened TWICE! thank god, that the bond wasn't that close so it doesn't matter...

from all these mishap, i begin to lose faith in friendship and relationship.... for friendship, not all friends who u trust and believe in.. will trust and believe in you.. be it years or the bond... still have to take some precaution.. i know being that will be unfair to friends or perhaps, i'm the only one... but beside this, i also found that the friend who betrayed me got to knew that i know this matter and she also got to know from a friend... so what does it show? hai.. it's ok... i believe in fate...

for relationship, not all boyfriends are that steady... when u r wif them or the feeling between u two still exist.. that guy will never say those harsh or nasty words..however when situation changes, their colours and faces turns around... whatever nasty words goes around.. for me..just blame myself for being blind, trust and met the WRONG guy or met the WRONG guy at the WRONG time... haha...

lastly, just to mention that i'm CAREFREE!!! please don't think that i'm too good to bully... i may be stupid to fall into ur trick and looks like gong-gong but i can assure you.... i will never say DIE ok... try me.. and bear in mind that there is one word called "KARMA".

NO MORE GREYISH_WORD MESSAGE FOR HIM... IT DON'T WORTH MY EFFORT....

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!! ESPECIALLY MY KHAKIS WHO ACCOMPANY ME THROUGH THESE TIME....

sign off ~